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LIFE ABROAD - Bloomy LIFE vs Gloomy Existence

2007-04-10T08:26:00.000-07:00

Whenever I sit aside doing nothing in this Vast Alien Land i.e. United States of America, I just think "What am I doing here?Am I Happy here?". I'm sure everyone living away from their family might have pondered this question a zillion Times. But what exactly our minds rests with on our life. Do you think you are happy or just missing family and friends???? This blog is just to share my thoughts of how I envision my life away from our HOME n HOMELAND.
Away from lovely family,caring friends and deep-rooten homeland lifestyle, being here in alien land makes us feel like this a lot of times. Family commitments or personal aspiration or financial outgrowth...name the reason so whatever.. How about the life you lead here. Do you feel there is no big difference or big Void ??? All are in your perspectives. Initially I thought I had to come abroad just because of family commitments and I had responsibilities to get done. So I was hesitant to adjust myself to this living style and was gribbing about this alienistic living. I was worried about change in work style, change in food habits, change in independent lifestlye. Everything here shocked rather than surprising me at first. I missed my home very much and was wondering when will I get back to my own HEAVEN ON EARTH. I thought all my pleasures and happiness lied in my home town and my family and nothing else mattered in this world. But slowly this question propped up - Was I still a home-grown KID or a matured independent MAN??? Well believe me buddies answering or rather trying to makes you realize a lot of things. You know you have genuine reasons to be here apart from your personal interests. But then if you know that this is going to be your life for some years in near future, do you still want to sit back and worry about missing the LIFE out there in HOMELAND or try to enjoy the lively happenings around you in this Alien World.
Lead a Bloomy Life enjoying new things here or Drag a Gloomy Existence missing old things there.
Thats upto you to figure that out. I tried to figure out which option I had to take and I'm 100% sure that I'm very happy that I went for former one. I started to enjoy the cuisines here. I planned a lot of trips around with all new friends I made here. Once these things cropped up in my lifestyle I really felt life here is also ain't that bad and this is also a lively environment to live on. Friendly people, independent lifestyle, self-respectable work style, mutual appreciation, lively food style, amazing travelogue experiences. Life here isn't that bad you see :) Apart from missing Family and friends and all the love that you got there, I think this alien life would also be a different experience in your life. Always experiences make a man more perfect or rather more interesting.
Just think for yourself, LIFE is precious as ever. Then why waste it worrying about what you miss thousands of miles away rather than exploring wonderful experiences in your hand in any alien land. Being Happy wherever you are and with whatever you have is the biggest asset anyone can develop in their life. Make it a Bloomy Lively Episode of your life or a Gloomy Existence Believe me friends, all in our hands.
LIFE AWAY HOME does mean that you are living away from all those things you have been brought up with and NOT LIVING AWAY FROM YOURSELF. LIFE is always within you and you have to decide to make it meaningful and enjoyable one rather than filling it with worries.

TRY NEW THINGS WHEREVER YOU ARE....
WHO KNOWS YOU MIGHT REDISCOVER YOURSELF.....

L.I.F.E. A.B.R.O.A.D. - I took it as a chance to RE-INVENT MYSELF...How about you???

Love - To Like or To Be Liked!!!!

2006-06-24T18:32:00.000-07:00

As the topic itself proclaims the meaning,
"Does a person's life become more lovable when he/she is loved or he/she loves someone???"
Most of you might have thought about this but yet wanted to bring it into lime light for all our dear readers.
Throughout our life, all we need to go ahead is Love - Care - Support - Comfort whatever you name it. Thats the driving force in everyone's life. But the arguement here is does loving some person enlightens life or being loved does?....might be a toughie for most of us. The well known scenario for this topic happens in the marital zone of our life. Parents or for that matter people around us say that "LIFE IS WONDERFUL IF U MARRY SOMEONE WHO LIKES YOU RATHER THAN MARRYING SOMEONE YOU LIKE". What sets the bars across these two aspects??? Is that being LOVED places you in risk-free and lead a comfortable life or Does you loving someone inculcates a risk factor that it might turn down and you mite get hurt??
Always questions are posted easily but solving or rather answering within ourself is the hard part.why dont we try this within ourself .What say???
For me, being loved would be the better part ( might sound selfish though:) ). Its because once if someone loves you, they try to know all about U. Likes & Dislikes , Favourites & Stuffs you hate, What kinda musik u like and so on. So the point to be noted here is,
The person tried to know all about you because he/she likes U or
The person came to know all about you and that made them to like U
No matter what happens , you are being liked and so you are the nurtured one. Thats altogether a unique feeling that everyone has to experience. Imagine who it would be always surrounded my caring and lovely vibrations from the person who loves us the most in this world??? Nothing in this world would matter than this in our life. With such kinda love encompassing you, you will be able to tackle out anything in your life and win over it. Even when you dont win over it, you will not for sure go down as there is always that Love to comfort you and make you recover faster. Well lets see the other part of this discussion too.... If you love someone , knowing in and out about them, knowing their favourites, collecting small small things belonging to them all brings in all the thrill in yourself. thats all fine ...But what happens when the love is reciprocated incompletely or rather not returned back by the person???Its not seeing this aspect in a pessimistic sense. But its always the human nature that when you give something to a person , our selfish nature inherited in all humans expect atleast some of it to be returned back.Isn't it??

So what happens when the love you give is not returned, hurt of feelings strikes us and the total attitude we see the rest of our life takes a big Divertion.......Just think on these lines...I should be making sense. This suggestion might be argued by some of us in the other way. But as I say always every human being in this world is UNIQUE and each one's opinion differs . The focus was to bring on this sometimes invisible but yet powerful aspect in our main stage of life and make us think more before we act on something thats going to change the rest of our life .

Making a hell out of heaven or Heaven out of Hell - all in our hands.

So All the Best with your lives !!!

Chao

Thirumanam Irumanam

2006-04-19T10:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I sat down to watch Mercury Pookal starring Shrikanth and my fav meera Jasmine and directed by Stanley who gave us my another fav movie - April Madathil. Well I should admit I was totally amazed at this movie. People if you like parthiban kanavu, then this is another version of it.I just fell for this movie.The bottom line of the story is two un interested souls are tied up into marriage by their parents which then bursts out into misunderstandings.But then eventually both fall in love and problems comes up in form of their parents.Remaining story shows how they understand what is real marriage lifen all .The scenes were so aptly practical n next door scenarios portrayed with pretty gud performances.This concept made me to share somethings with you my reader frienz & here it goes .....

Marriage - well each 1 have their own version of this LIFE commitment.Parents Vs Gal N Guy :) .I dont know why but then the very practise of so called Arranged marriage has been deep rooted into our society.For good or bad - nobody knows. But I'm ain't here to blame it but then why does it always have to be the parents who choose the for our entire life. I'm not here to strike out the fact "NO ARRANGED ONLY LOVE MARRIAGES", but its just why don't parent give full freedom for their children on their marriages. Say , when a son goes to USA , parents say to their relatives - "We have belief in our son.He is one gem of a character.Nothing will go wrong even if he is away from us".Now where does that belief go when the BIG thing comes up?Does that mean they are still ain't sure that their childeren can do anything right , but not selecting their partners? Something like this happens in almost all of our marriages - the parents prepare a shortlist of eligible alliances out of meetings in various occasions with the relatives such as

Some Relative X: "unga paiyen enga work panraan???"
Anther Relative Y: "en paiyen US-le s/w engr-a irukaan .maasam rs.XXX lacs sambalam
vanguraan.ippo thaan avan per-le 30L-ku veedu vanginomakkum!!!"
X : "adengappa..unga paiyen-ku evlo vayasagudhu?parthitu irukeengala???"
Y : "hmmm...!! ippo enna vayasagudhu avanku.chinna paiyen maami avan"
X : "appadi sollara pudathu maami.indha kalathule nalla varan amayuradhu kastam.ennoda x'oda y'oda z'oda.........(n connections ) ponnu oruthi parka mahalakshmi atam irupa.jadagam kodungo .porundhuradhuna parpoom.porutham amanjadhanna..pesiduvoom ...enna solrel?"
Y ( now confused) : (thinking) "is my son really ready to marraige ??" "seri maami .naan tharen.parkalam ellam baghavan seyal".

And there goes the life of two unknown souls to be tied up - MARRIAGE .Then the short listed alliance photos are shown to the guy/gal and asked to choose 1 photo and nod YES & marry for rest of the life.Is this any job offer kinda situation?? Select one offer from all that you have and marry that Mr. or Ms. X ????Does that make any sense to you?

I agree parents know whats right & wrong for us,but then this is our LIFE.Im not offending the very thought of arranged marriages, but then why cant present generataion parents make their arranged marriages more into love 1s, so both the familes , Bride and Bridegroom all are happy out of this biggie:). But then it all depends on the relationship with parents and their children. May be what I think is , you get engaged , have some ample time span to get to know each other before marriage. This span is not to decide if he/she is going to suit me as partner - no, becase now u r commited and just cant deny No this aint working out.Selecting from thee lot is all in your hands - your fate out of your hands so that U dont blame others for your life in future :) jst kidding. Of course this is not a hard-to-digest truth because obviously we are going to share our life with a unknown person .Why not make that Mr.X as ur partner by understanding in that given time frame betweeen engagement and marriage. This can be utilizied as an oppurtunity to know who us partner is?what is his/her +ves and -ves?Where do I have to adjust ?Where do I have to guide?Where do I need support???etc..etc... so that ultimately when the MEGA EVENT comes up you are mentally prepared that your marriage doesnt seem to be like a NIGHTMARE or a SHOCK Package.

Both of you know that you are going to share rest of your lives with each other but not with complete strangers as before but with some1 whom you know NOW.Am I sounding somewhat sensible ???Well this might be a suggestion to compromise betweek the guy n gal and their families in regards of marriage.Well as always there might be YES's and NO's for this article but this is an attempt to bring in some extra light on what is going to be our LIFE's MEGA FESTIVAL - OCCASION - EVENT.Its upto to the guy and gal to understand each other before marriage so that LIFE after MARRIAGE IS NOT A COMPLETE SHOCKER BUT A SWEET SURPRISE. That makes it more interesting and thrilled isnt it????
Well tat reminds me of a joke here @ this juncture

"Marriage and cell phones are similar because obviously u know that - gosh I should have waited a bit longer , I could have got a better model"

Its just a thought ok lol. Doesn't mean that marriages cant be perfect. No pair is matched 100% perfect. It got to be improved to be perfect by the partners and the journey to make it 100% perfect is what the thrill is about .This might relate to my previous blog ACCEPT than EXPECT. Hope this small chunk of my thoughts might be of some meaning . So go ahead - some1 out there is waiting for you :) Get to them, lead a happy life but @ sametime there are these angels by your side called parents. Love - 2 souls coming as 1 but there are 2 minds involved .Wherever minds are there, thoughts and contractions in opinions would be there.So its upto you to make ur MARRIAGE - HEAVEN IN HELL or HELL OUT OF A HEAVEN.

Am I Matured or Immatured?

2006-04-17T13:19:00.000-07:00

Well its now being the Nth time have I thot - Am I being the son acting irresponsible and immatured or is it my parents?I ask this myself when I sit down to think my past 1 yr life. One year bac , I was working in the same way back in my lovable nation but with the secured feeling of staying in my nation and close to my family.I was being advised to be much more matured in my decisions and act towards my future. Well in response to those so called advices, I planned my future in India itself to move ahead in my career job , earn more , save more and ultimately make my future a better 1 to both me and my parents. But at this very juncture comes the comes this big Clash of thoughts and decisions in my life in the name of GENERATION GAP - ME Vs PARENTS.

I hope many of you @ this situation might have thought to stay back in our own nation - earn more and live ahead happily.My parents,who asked me to act maturedly advising "Son, its high time you see your careeer abroad.You will get more technical exposure.You will earn more".If you try to investigate the original brainmaster in such comments and preachings of our lovable makers,the initial source would be the so called SOCIETY. Let me state an incident for this :

When I was at home for my vacations some time early last year, one of my close relative came up and had a tit-bit chat with my mom.She was asking about my job, where I work , how long Im in job , etc . Now here comes the most anticipated momber on our parents mind - she ultimately shooted THE Q "Why is your son not into USA now?You know my father's X's Y's Z's is in USA.He earns this much and he already has got a apartment here you know.We have started to look alliances for him .Obviously now he will get big big alliances le". What would you expect out of this HIGHLY SENSITIVE ISSUE ???. If u were in my stand - YES U got it. My mom came upto me, after the Female NARADHAR left, saying "karthi.see how they tell how big you can earn in USA?you dont u also try to go to onsite.its been arnd 2.5 years u r working.So ask for onsite and earn more son.Its for your future only.You earn more so you save more and invest thangam....blah blah..".

That very point of this advise triggers the big Question for me - Am I acting Immatured or they?????? Why do our parents who preach all things for our future , lend their ears to all those useless talks from those so called RELATIVES but not listen to our own opinions. Does these emotional blackmails from our parents really proving improvement in our own personal life??? Does that mean listening to them and working here denote - Am I leading a convincing life or compromising life??? When we the youth Generation X are so eager to spend our living and future with parents in our home nation with all the confidence to make out for our happy living, why doesnt the same prompt into our senior generation aka parents ?Are we matured in this sense or not? Mebbe this can be patriotism or Emotional Maturity in us?.But why doesn't this echo into our elders' minds who just want to see their products get marketed in the International market and earn more rather than staying near them and earn just for a happy living? Am I right or wrong in this regards?

Well lots of questions always do arise when we talk on something emotional and so does this issue.But does listening to them ,improves our lives or its just we are made to live happily with something thats not into our intensions of living?Well If you ask me I would say they are not wrong because I love them so mch and yeah I'M AN EMOTIONAL IDIOT :)Well the decision is ours to make for our life. I have decided to be here for some years for my parents's happiness and move back to my mother land for settling down which would be my own intentions .So does that mean I have lead my life convincing or compromising? GOK :)))

Am I Patriot?

2006-04-16T12:49:00.000-07:00

After our lunch this noon, we sat down to see Rang De Basanti .For me it was 3rd Time but I didnt get bored to see this particular movie, though every scene in it has been into my heart the very first time itself. As the movie slowly went on, the nerve of the movie - feel of the essence - creeped into my thoughts not just for first time but also at very third time.What is that this movie is trying to put into every one of us?Do we need to follow their food steps - reform our nation - kill the corrupted people and say "Im trying to reform my nation?" or Is It trying to put a question in each of us WHAT IS PATRIOTISM??

Thoughts ran across as I was washing my plates - What am I doing here ? - Working in USA , earning in $s and eating half cooked tasteless food and see a patriotic movie once in a while and finally say "Gosh .We havent done anything for our country". My dear friend who saw this movie didnt tell anything and went to bed.Was wondering am I addicated to just being affected by any movie or am I provoked by this movie as such?Even when I saw the movie first time, 1000s of question prompted up leading to 1 single question - "Am I Patriotic or not? If I'm not then who is a patriot??". My other roomie was mentioning about the new youth group of 3 IIT-ians forming up a political party to take the FIRST STEP and they should be doing things to reform our country. I know we all do feel the same thing but why does none of the soul who can feel that responsibility take that??. I know even I wont stand up to take it up but why is that?Does that mean that if we are not to take up responsibility to reform something , then we are not patriotic?

This Q is always there in each and everyone's mind and no-one can deny that.If they deny it, then for sure buddy you are fooling urself.Of course all we can do is expresss our views to reform but not put it into action.But I would say I am a patriot.Wanna know why? Well atleast I have this feeling inside me that something should be done to my country from my side. Aint this feeling a trigger for my patriotism? Is it not the initiative that MIGHT (stressing MIGHT and not WILL because still im a typical patriot - tell things but might not end up putting them into action ) make me do something to my country. May be I cant do any reformation in the political side?May be I cannot stand up in elections, represent people and do reformations from my side to my nation? But does only these things count up to show up your patriotism?Well not for me guyz. For me, doing anything thats going to be benefitial to every other living soul on this nation is being patriotic.Social services, helping poor, donations towards orphanages and old homes - trying every little thing towards the benefit of some soul in this nation is what that counts for me. Well I know this might not sound logical to many. But atleast I know What Patriotism is for me?? How many of you can atleast say this?

Well its not questioning each other do you know what patriotism is?Its questioning yourself asking what have I or atleast what am I going to do for the betterment of my nation and its people. If you could answer that, then you might feel just the way I feel. Many say "Something is better than nothing". That might also suit this scenario.Thinking of the nation is better than just sitting and wondering - Am i Patriot or not ?? Every action starts up with a spark of thought - a pinch of emotional attachment to it .Nothing comes out just like that. An instinct - a thought is needed for it.

For those who are reading this , It might be just another blog questioning U again and again finally making you say "Its all in words and we cant put into action" .Well I would say one thing to you - allow this thought to get planted into your mind - let it grow up - let it then reep into some action which might be something benefitial to our nation - to a human being . Who knows what might happen?
But then as putting an end to anything - trying to put an end to this blog - I have to say this might be a forcible ending to this thought in this section - but not for sure THE END to the thoughts that has been deep-rooted within ME. This END might be the very beginning of making me feel that Im planning somethign to be done to prove myself patriot to my nation . It might happen to you too.If it does so- then my blog has done its work and now its U to do ur work. This might not sound real PATRIOTISM - but as we all say each 1 has their own versions of everything . This is my version - might suit you or not. If it makes you feel for something, then "GO AHEAD , PLAN AND DO SOMETHING for YOUR NATION" and let me know what you felt abt ur own version of PATRIOTISM.

M o v i e - Mirage or Image

2006-01-13T17:05:00.000-08:00

MOVIE - CINEMA - ART - ENTERTAINMENT - The moment this word flashes into our minds , Immediately we go to a bliz state of relaxation.
Does this 5 letter word control all the 4 directions of our 6 senses?
Is it a part of our life which we cannot live without ?
Whats this movie entertainment all about

Hope most of us would agree to that fact that movies n arts are for entertainment : an outsourcer of all our worries , tensions and rejuvenate ourselves.Trying to pen down some pros and cons of movies would never end as each one of us are UNIQUE and our views differ but still to highlight sumthings

Pros - Relaxation , Tension Relief , Hangout with friends , Universally available , etc.
cons - Inducing bad thots into the minds of Youth and Cultural Violences and cultivation of malpractices as impresed by the movie stars

Yet dis blog focuses on diff View.. Is movies reflection of our realistic lives or Illustionary Fantasy Dreamz??

With the undeniable fact that our day-2-day lives are intertwined with ever-fascinating E World , how much we influence the outcome of the stories in movies and the vice versa? Thats the thought to be flashed upon here. People might argue - that most of today's movies are inculcators of bad sick Youthy environment and a total spoiler of our Cultural Values. The other sector might pound on the quite most-of-times acceptable facts that entertainment is all about everything and the individual is responsible for the negatives influences from the movies. Well the world seems to be educated of high-tech stuffs and what not - but why is then the maturity to demarcate the limits of the influence of movies on us been not reached yet. We cant deny the fact that they are not to be a stand-alone world but deep enrooted into our Lifes.

When we see some really good movies, the reviews come out very outspoken and frank. Movies might be appreciated because of its story / performance / action / songs. Such movies run for long times. But for people who are always on the verge of denying that movies do influence our life and they are just CULTURAL BLASTERS - i wud like to post a Q to you. We all know that movies with just entertainment stuffings and do great markets while at sametime movies with just so-amicable lively close-to-heart storylines doesn't clinch victories in business and reviews though carrying just gud critics' reviews. Will just reviews be enough to encourage the buzzing E World to give more of such movies??Are we not a part of this and to be blamed for it ??

Movies - action / comedy / romance / drama / adventure / cartoon / documentary / plays - all these various E forms are just a reflection of what the society - ME U n Oders need are - inspite for our visually but yet monotic daily world. So why in that case blame the after-effects on movies alone when da root causes underlie in us? Why dont we think it as a Closed loop - U support good movies - good performances only - E world makes such movies back to entertain U . R on d oder hand - U just support purely entertainment time sneakers and critize that movies are mirages - real time fantasies - A medium of visualising one's dreams - Alwayz Impossible Stuff.

With the era of movies ageing mostly near to that of human race , its been parallelising right from our ancestral ages. So we cant deny the very fact that movies are a part of life or else the [E] Buzz might have been in museums along with Extinct Dinoz. So its the responsiblity of the viewers aka society as such to support movies which are gonna reflect themselves in their real lives - which are gonna be real benefactors for the improvement of the cultural values or in other sense - viewers should know what to extract as influnces into their lives and that to demarcate as pure entertainment stuff. If that distinguishin Intelligence roots out into the society then why blame the our-hands woven E World.

You mite agree or mite not - but then think of this trivial n Virtual world viewed either as a MIRAGE of our own fantasies - dreamz - seeing which we carry on our lives satisfied or as an IMAGE - a complete reflection of the society and its happenings. Its your choice !!! Voice for your choice - provide support and appreciation for movies that are gonna be benefitiary n still entertaining - E World will then be ur PART of LIFE n not turn ur LIFE APART.

Accept than Expect

2006-01-06T15:29:00.000-08:00

Accept this blog rather than you expect :)

Yeah its always been hard for anyone in this world to accept things but so easily to expect out of their life and indeed others too. The very word of ACCEPT what life is , makes everyone to just take a step aback . What does the word ACCEPT really mean in a person's life? Why do we have to accept whats happening around us - to make our life more calm, relaxed , merrier and mainly without any failures or bad moments? Is expecting things to happen in our life a SIN or CRIME ? So to wrap up these contrasting versions- DOES OUR LIFE TURN TO BE HEAVEN WHEN WE ACCEPT AND NOT EXPECT.Well this blog is just a discussion on it and not a conclusive one bcas evry1 of us have their own solutions for this .

Let me throw some light an some example scenarios

@ Love life - You love some1 so much in your life and u expect things out of that relationship. If those expecations are not met fully and you feel devestated. Instead , if you can change your attitude and start accepting things revolving their love life - then wont it become more relaxed , lovable and worthy to be living??? This love life is not jst the phase of life when we are lovers but then life after marriage and even applicable to any phase of our life .

@ Marriage - say a husbie or wife complains about how wonderful their married life was during the initial stage of their marriage which has now deterioted . The expectancy ratio from the partner to be met increases but @ the same time their percentage of acceptance decreases unknowingly. U out there might not accept this if u r a married person but come on Big deal accepting the facts and trying to work around them would surely make your life more wonderful than worrying that you are yielding yourself to your partner against your will and wish. Married life is not about yielding yourself and being yourself but its all about being together - i meant LIVING TOGETHER.

Listing down , there are innumerous scenarios tomake this discussion more vital . But blogs are meant to me short u know r lse it mite turn My readers against me:) . I would say from my personal experiences with people , whom u love and people who love you - the very feeling of making yourself accept things on for U rather than expecting from them , makes your life wonderful in the sense that you avoid failures - worrying moments about whats gonna happen in your life .The expectancy aspect knowingly or not builds a sheild around you wherein sometime in near future you might find yourself trapped in - all you do is expect thigns to happen to u - and not cherishing things that could have happened in your life if @ all you had accepted them.

So friends , just give it a thought of how lovable your life might turn if at all you try to accept things and not expect them to happen your way. It might your school or college studies , your friends n family , your love life , your career or even your married life . Try it out and you will see the difference in your life. Well for some of them it might not suit but I hope majority of you would accept ( see this concept comes every where we talk about human life and relationship na ) my version of seeing things - ACCEPT THAN EXPECT . Making life more lovable and cherishable is not an easy task , I know but then this thought presented here might start your action towards achieving the ultimatum - LIFE AS SUCH..

I hope this scrap or rather scribbling did meet your expectancy atleast 0.1%. If so , then I think I'm good or else pity for the fact - U gotta ACCEPT this scrap.Enjoy Life.

Loneliness - Doom or Boom

2006-01-06T15:28:00.000-08:00

The very word of being LONELY - brings in a unknown feeling and a kinda hesitation in ourself. What exactly does happen when we are lonely - does our mind relax - does our nerves calm down and refreshes themself - do we think of who We r . Well i would say thats when actualy our mind is more confused , with millions and millions of qns in our mind . The state of being lonely - where its jst U Vs Urself . Is it a war field for conflicts of thoughts or a heaven where mind and souls relaxes to replenish U. Is it a Doom of darken thoughts or Boom of realising ourselves??? Well thats the play card today..

Whenever I feel or rather be lonely - a unusual feeling haunts me - wait should i say haunt me or rather be a diff feeling - a diff thot asking lots n lots of qns in my mind n heart . Do I need to take being lonely as - a place to find ME in myself , a playground to play with my thoughts about self realisation - or do i look it as a haunted hell where millions n millions of questions all encompass me without even allowing me to answer them 1 by 1. How we do envision this strange situation - LONELINESS. Well vrything in our life needs to be taken +vely .. Well i take them as that because the net result of being haunted or frightened by negative thots n visions r nothing but loss of priceless moments in our life which could have been spent with enjoyment and fun. Well thats for another blog ;) lol.

Well though I feel that being lonely is not my kinda thing to do . I might fool myself that I cannot stay alone or think alone , being lonely do teaches something . Its our inner mind thats got to resolve of wat its trying to teach us and it what sense does it tell that. Weel while all had plans for christmas , my friend had to go to visit his friends for 10 days vacations which forcibly put me into HOME ALONE - CAST AWAY - for 10 whole days . I just was scared of the very thot of it. But then as 2 days passed , I saw it as a oppurtunity to replenish myself , re-invent myself - to be quite useful u know. Being loenly of cours puts in a state of trauma in the initial state but then when you settle down it gives u to see the world arnd U in a diff dimension. The place where its all about U n only U - where you can sit back , relax and think what all you have thought happened in your life - a quick recheck of our thots with our checklists in mind - to see if we are leading our life in the right track.

Watching TV , cooking , cleaning houses , listening to music - these are ways of killing time when u r alone - but then why do u wanna kill time when u can live with it . Its all in our thots and how we visualise ourself being lonely. I just re-invented myself jst a few hours back when i got to read some of others' blogs and some scraps in orkut. Well i think why cant i pen down my thots so that some day i mite view them n say "wow man..u did hv brains to think this all "... Thats when i wanted to live my time rather than killing them with some other things.

Is it just being alone - a Doom where U have nothing to think about and just sit back haunted back with wierd thots n feelings and not being yourself - or its a Boom for you to re-invent urself - discover WHO WE R - well this question is for each of us to answer ( doesn't need to be alone to answer this lol ). This day - This hour do made me think of wats the essence of loneliness n Im thankful to give it a thought.

Well next time U r alone - just think am i going to take this as a DOOM or a BOOM...

THE QUESTION AND ITS ANSWER LIES IN YOUR INNER HEART.LISTEN - TALK - SHARE - DECIDE WITH YOUR THOUGHTS - who knows U mite come out of urself - a NEW U. ciao

Is Love life of our life?

2006-01-06T15:27:00.000-08:00

Life itself is a weird playground - different field - Heaven in itself with hell underneath it. It always comes up with surprise when you expect something else.This blog is jst a thought about wat really LOVE is all about. Love: a magical word in different forms, when it pops up in anyone's mind, it immediately means between a boy n a girl. Well strange isn't it? After all the dictionary doesn't point to only 1 meaning right? Love might mean towards parents , friends , brothers and sisters, teachers n more uniquely love you have on "U" yourself. But then human brains are more inclined to see LOVE between opp sexes. Is our mind driven to think like that or We are like that? Well I'm gonna confine myself to the age zone of 20-25 because that's where most of the romance happen and Im sure no-one in this world can define or talk about life throughout the entire life zone. If any one can, then I would like to see him and get some tips lol.

Well talking about Love is gonna be tough for everyone of us because noone can define what love is?. Is it the care we have for each other ? or Intimate love or just friendly feeling? Who knows n Who can define. Well I cant. But then this magical verse brings LIFE into our LIFE. Im sure everyone would have crossed this wonderful feeling in his/her lifetime till now. Yeah I refer girl n guy Love. Thats wat we all ponder as LOVE na.

When I entered college and days passed on , things change up in your life. your attitude changes , every girl/guy u see , every chick/hunk that gives u a look (mite be out of pity too lol) makes you feel 'wow is she/he looking @ me?' - some biological changes - emotional outbreaks happen. We mite come up with intellectual talks like - this is normal in a youngster's life cycle and it should be under control. Yeah Yeah ...we all know about it, but then why do we control it if its giving us the feeling of wonderful world in ourselves. The world looks new , everything looks colorful, you feel always more easier and calm n relaxed. These doesn't come up so easily for a person in his/her lifetime unless he/she is in love.I know most of u wont agree to me as u mite argue WE R NOW MATURED. But can anyone of u stand out to say 'I have never got attracted to any girl/guy in my youth life and I was so focused on my career'. Well I wont fall into that category and neither wud I like to fall into that cader. Each one of us have some love stories - their own ROMEO - JULIET versions - hidden deep inside their hearts. But then dont ponder on it again pals. It mite bring in tears than happiness as of now :) and that's not good.

Does Love really bring in LIVELINESS into our life? Is this the only feeling which makes a human unique from other species? Is this the magical word that does magic all inside US?.. Well its easier to put up questions but then thinking on them and answering them may take a LIFE TIME even. Well nt sure about others , but then I personally went through that wonderful feeling in my life and I'm proud of it. Though ppl mite say it gives u thorns rather than the rose , well friends we all know that LOVE IS A BED OF ROSES n roses do have thorns. No one just falls into love not knowing this. We all look to get the rose without getting into the thorns but not all succeed. Some mite get the rose as simple as a snatch and some mite end up seeing only thorns n there is no rose @ all . Well that's life. But then journey towards getting that ROSE - LOVE - LIFE INTO LIFE - is a wonderful experience. It opens your heart - frees your mind - expands your boundary - brings in relaxed happiness in your nerves - makes your body rush with flashes n lightnings of spirit - makes u feel 'I'M THE KING OF THIS WORLD' (Well Leonardo did shout like that - but he didn't be 1 lol - never mind). But then the time when we are drenched into the WORLD OF BEING IN LOVE...does ny1 deny that its a wonderful phase of our life ..If so then i think he is A SPECIMEN. no offense. Its just a thot of mine.

I hope most of u will agree to the fact that "ITS BETTER TO FALL IN LOVE AND GET HURT THAN NOT FALLING INTO IT". This statement itself makes me question so many things . Why do people say that "U FALL IN LOVE" rather than " U R IN LOVE". What does falling to do with this emotional feeling Why can't they say "U RAISE IN LOVE r U R LIVING IN LOVE".Some bla bla thing but why FALL into love. Im nt sure who framed it but i think hereally felt into it and didn't wake up..lol anyways I feel that this LOVE - no matter it gives u rose or thorn - brings LIFE into ur LIFE. doesn't it?Talking about this wonderful cant fit into just one blog. Its the blog our life - updating throughout our lifetime - for some it might have had a happy ending - for some ppl "?" - for some of them "." - for some it mite nt even started its journey. But then each n evry soul has to cross this lovely LOVE into their life. IF not u btr check up with ur doc lol. Hope we all find wats into this 4 letter scrambler of our life and wat does it mean in our LIFE. Is this the heart of our LIFE or just a phase of ours. Well this mite continue in our journey of our lives but its 'US' who have to answer the questions for it and ponder over to bring in LIFE INTO OUR LIFE.I myself now sit and think "DID LOVE IN ME MAKE ME WRITE THIS BLOG?- or its jst I'M IN LOVE with L O V E". Well if i find the answer that would be my next blog.
LOVE 2 LOVE n be in LOVE.

Living or Existing?

2006-01-06T15:23:00.000-08:00

My very first blog...

Well here I'm, after almost 2 years from HEAVEN OF DREAMS aka COLLEGE.After graduation in 2003, I headed towards my new chapter of life CAREER. With all great dreams in my mind about this new world(wonder if its CAREER or CARRIER Of lifeless moments huh...). Landing in Mumbai for the first time was a nightmare in itself. Life went on making me feel for missing those wonderful times.I know I would get words of maturity - 'Come on mate..Life is full of changes'.But little do they realise that the same haunting memories are riding out mad in their minds too. Still you never feel thats life is changing seasons without any shades of the past.

So packing all those utopic screenshots flashing across ma mind, I went on with my professional life where its all about lifeless work and people which we call as career maturity & convince ourselves.Entering the corporate phase, working out day n night with lifeless machines, typing out millions n millions of code daily .The same routine life picks up in rocket speed wherein in some stage we forget 'Are we one among the machines setup in our works??'.In this LOST WORLD , we tend to grow and make money at the cost of losing great life moments to be enjoyed with ppl around Us. Going on having lifeless emotionless verbal workings with the dumb-heads mite one day make us inside The Lost World. Not much with excitement, the only breaking and encouraging thing was that even when I was heading towards a LIFELESS LIFE , i did earn something valuable. A pack of good souls who were there all throught my professional years - providing an outlet to all my joys n merries, cries n laughs - I got a shoulder to cry , an arm to cling when support was needed , a foot to walk along with on my way , eyes to give me confidence via vision . Its just that we dont accept the hard-to-digest reality that we are growing old ( of course older n older ) with more responsibilites, more burdens more reality scenes. Its just ME ( r its U ) who blogs out the visionary thought that WHERE AM I HEADING TO??. Life is giving what you need @ all times , bt its in our hands to see that we have it or not.Dont you ever think that the LIFE encompassing us is what we intend to control or is it the other way around? Thats the tough call to make n I know each 1 have their versions of it.

Days pass by , months pass by , years are born , calendars gets torned, all happens but does your life gets better n better?. But then if we dont even put down some minutes or even smaller secs to flash on these thoughts that sparkle all the time we think of LIFE , then what is LIFE? - Well I sometimes think that LIFE is Live It Fully with Enjoyment. But do i see it right from my mind or its from my heart. I did hear to my HEART sometimes ( mebbe my mistake !!) and went ahead to see that if im really LIVING r EXISTING???Well thats a tough call to make in vry1s life.

For me I didn't feel bad to say that I LIVED until I was in the ever-green fantasy College Life but then i think i might have turned to be EXISTING and of course earning for my EXISTENCE ( hope i make some sense out here). After all those marathons for money, fame and existence into the world of nothing but lifeless possessions. Was this intended to go ahead like this in our lives or we really misssing out something that meant to be done?. Well answers might prop out when we sit down and think of it rather than say 'No Time...Have work' n thats so not fair enough to fool ourself ..to be noted - Im into this too. These questions arouse in me when i just sit down thinking what am i doing now? well other than typing n typing with dumb machines, whats going on in my life? . Well as we all agree - asking '?' are easy , answering them Well mite take even a life. We might now be excelling as architects , administrators , for that matter any level of work , but are we there 'WHERE WE NEED TO BE? WHERE WE WANT TO BE?'.

Well asking these questions myself, sometimes make me laugh @ myself. But sure I now feel that its "better late then never". But still answers are out there in the vast n strange world of life. Finding them is all in our hands, after'll its our LIFE. Do find it and Live you Life n let me google it for myself :).Though you might think that no fruitful thoughts prop out of this discussions , well thats one side of our life which we can imagine easily . But then thats not life in complete. LIVING LIFE LIVELY is a big challenge against us. Yet once we tackle it with few trick shots - optimism , straight thinking , knowing WHO R U n WHAT U WANT - that challenge is nothing not a simple password to life to enjoy to its limit. Life mite come with surprise packages - it depends on us - to take it with smiles or worry upon the setbacks...

Well Im sure reading this the first thing that mite go in your mind mite be - WHAT DOES IT FINALLY BOIL DOWN. But giving it a thot mite change our lifes between the thin line of LIVING r EXISTING.Is LIFE all about searching MEANING OF LIFE? then when shall we live it ?????????????????????????????